I'm not a person who eager to have a relationship. But I do envy my friends who is in a relationship. I know is wrong, but I don't know, I just love to see their smile when they have each other. Is this a sign for me to married? Maybe, I dunno. I am not ready for the commitment in marriage. Not even in an a relationship either. I find it hard to start a relationship. But why some of my friends bother to find guys through WeChat? Whenever they do that, I feel like slapping their face. It's annoying. It's like they were that desperate to find a guy, and it make me wanna puke. I tried it once, but it is freaking weird and idiotic at the same time. Is it fun? No, not at all. Oh I wish it could stop. I wanna live a normal life like before. Help me!