Maybe?

Maybe it is time but i dont know. I have never felt this way before for the past 19 years of living. I start to develop the desire to be in love.  Let me tell you, it is so awkward that i felt like this is not me anymore. Missing a guy that i know that could never notice me. I am plain, boring, a nerd, and chubby. I am not that fashionable and i am not that sociable. But i really want to hear someone call me sayang. Sound pretty pervetish, but i really want to hear it.

You may find me sounding so desperate to have a boyfriend, but no, what i want is a husband. But not know, later. Until my goal is achieved.