Awaken

I always wonder why I want to be in a relationship so bad. Maybe it is the fact that I want to feel how is it feel to be in love and loved by someone. A male specifically.

Like what she said was true, instead of wasting my time on something worthless, I should be focusing on my goals. What I want to achieve. What my parents want me to be. Instead of rushing to find a soulmate, I should prepare myself to be a better wife. My wife-skills are so extremely bad and I cant even think a real man could ever want me as a wife.

I guess its better to grow up and start to act like a true adult. I am no longer a child who still need to rely on others on everything. I am also no longer a typical adolencense that only dream about love and marriage. I have a responsibility in life and I should really start focusing on things that is important. Soulmate can come later. If Allah said, "this is your partner, cherish it until your last breath," then so be it.